I have a confession: my son is home sick with a stomach bug and I’m at work.
I had an 8:45am committee meeting with the Provost, another meeting at 11am with the Chair of another department, and then my students had their final exam from 12:45 to 2:45pm. I was writing some emails pertaining to our writing program. And thinking about my next book proposal. Throughout it all I checked my phone for the updates from my husband, who took time off to take care of our 18 month old son (and to clean the puke from the car seat where my son got sick on his way to daycare). My mind is at school, my heart is at home.
It’s days like today that I especially feel the binary pull on my identity. Am I a professor or am I mommy? Can I be both? How can I be both? This is not a statement on having multiple identities (we all do this- besides a professor and a mother, I’m also a runner, reader, Californian-at-heart, former expat, sister, cousin, daughter, and a brunette). But, I created this blog because I think that those of us in academia struggle with being a real presence in our field AND a present and happy mother. I don’t have an answer, but I do have a lot of ideas, experiences, questions, and a lot of friends (and friends of friends) who are in the same situation. Maybe together we can contribute something to the conversation. We are not leaning in, we are not opting out, we are Academic Mamas.